Am I Going to Die?

Are you scared? Of course you are.

Is This Cancer Killing me?

Are you scared? Of course you are. No one wants to be wondering if this is how they’re going to die. Having cancer IS a constant fear of dying.

No one can answer that question either. The medical community will talk all about treatment options and ways to make side effects easier to manage. They won’t volunteer your chances of survival because they really don’t know. Everyone responds differently to treatment. Your journey is unique.

For me, I had to push my doctor into confirming that I had a 14% chance of survival. THAT is a scary percentage. It felt like the ground had suddenly given way beneath me, leaving me numb. The future vanished in an instant, replacing it entirely with overwhelming terror. I know, I know… survival percentages are general statistics and not a definitive prediction. Yet, I was scared. "

“Cancer is not going to beat me.” That was my battle cry. I am going to have to fight and fight hard.

Even in that darkness, hope survives. That percentage cannot account for the strength of the human spirit. There are countless individuals who defy the odds. The road ahead will be terrifying, but a fierce will to live and the support of others will lead the way to remarkable resilience and prayerfully, remission.